Going through the same shit bruh.I've considered divorce a few times, but it's because my wife is a low key alcoholic. Our three kids the only reason we still together.
Sounds like in your situation you the one fucking shit up though. Always leaving to hang with the homies and hoes. Take accountability and stop fucking up. Or if you plain don't like her then end it and don't fight her on custody or anything cause again, you the one fucking up.