It's really about finding someone to relate and talk to. People don't realize how hard it is to step away from a routine that has been helping you live for a long time. Just take care of yourself and make sure you making positive, progressive steps to respect the pain you've lived man because the only way through it is to work towards something better.
The power is in you always to break the cycle.
Anti-depressants effect a lot of other areas of your life, and if you had been on them for awhile, and suddenly wanted to stop, you'd never be the same after. It's just a drug, just like everything else.